I'm upset. Ranting. On and on and on. But it's all just in my head. I'm screaming. But to myself. If I mess something up, I may not externally start making a scene, but I'm still going to discuss it with myself. As if it made any difference at all. I make sure I know what I should have done, but somewhere in my head, I know I'm not going to get a second chance at it. Or maybe that's not the case, maybe it's like when I'm talking to myself in my head, as if it is to help me be "busy", or "preoccupied". But if I actually take the time to think about it, talking to myself in my head is not working towards that goal at all. It's no help, at all. But when I'm in the zone, and filled with nervousness thinking up excuses a million miles an hour, none of the thoughts include an excuse, or any activity to preoccupy myself, or make myself look busy. It's all just talk I guess.
Weird..
Yeah, I do this a lot too.
ReplyDeleteHave you ever realized that whenever you are talking to yourself in these situations that your eyes are looking down? &you can also tell if someone you associate with is talking to them-self when you start to notice a time at which they are looking downward as if they we're thinking. It's a cool concept.
ReplyDeletewow, I never noticed that but I will now :)
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